Iowa is passive aggressive

It is getting COLD outside...I am not at all prepared. You'd think spending your whole life in a place where life hibernates for over half the year would make you used to it, but I am not. I want to be warm always.

Anyways, I got a "real" job about a month ago, and I have to be honest...I am going to go back to serving full time. The money is better, and I feel useful, and I don't know. I just don't think this whole 9-5 thing is for me. Maybe it will be if I find a job where I can actually use what I know because right now I'm doing a job easier than the one I had when I was 16. But leaving will be hard because my boss is awesome, chiropractic is awesome, and all in all it isn't a bad job. I just don't think I'm cut out to be a receptionist. This led me to thinking about all my jobs in the past. It is always so much easier to quit when the boss was mean or you were getting the shaft but when there is no reason other than "I don't feel like doing this anymore" it gets harder. Doing what you want isn't easy sometimes, but someone has to be the princess.

For the last however long it's been since I've "blogged" I have managed to bring J-Train back home to Des Moines. Without my partner in drunk I have become "that girl" a few times but I'll own it because, well, I'm used to it. I've had some fun, I've done some things, and I've lived my life but a rut forms fast when I'm here so I've got to get moving.

Plans have been (close to) finalized for my next venture out into the world. First things first, I'm heading back to Cali the 6-9th of November and it couldn't come any sooner!! Maria decided that celebrating her 21st in the cold wasn't ideal and I completely agree, so we decided to fly out for the weekend and get some much needed sunshine. While we're there and starting after that we are getting in touch with friends and looking for jobs and apartment searching because after the holidays this girl is moving out to San Diego! The plan isn't perfect. I'm not doing it the best or smartest or most common way. But I'm going. My dad told me that I have a habit of making snap decisions and plowing headfirst into whatever I'm doing without looking up and around and seeing the other ways. I agree. Maybe it's a personality flaw, but it's me, and I'm happy....and in less than 3 months I'm going to be soaking up sunshine and making choices and living. That is all that matters :)